Month: January 2004

  • Blogging As Punk

    Via that canny state-of-the-blogosphere watcher Snappy the Clam, a rant you simply must read if you maintain a website that could fall under the category of “blog.”

    It was, for a while, as if we were all fans of the punk, you see, together out there on the floor, drenched in sweat, pogoing, hurling beer cans, singing along, not really caring which band was up on the stage, just loving the hum and the throb and the tribal feeling of it all. Now it feels as if many of us have become fans of various specific bands, or have started our own and are struggling to gather our own crowds, or have decided to just keep it in the garage where it belongs, and damn having an audience. We don’t have time to go to each others’ gigs anymore. When everyone is in a band, there’s no one left to watch the shows.

    That almost inevitably leads to irrelevance, though. Survey says. You sell yourself to the record company to try and get a distribution deal, you start to watch what you say, you suck up to the Big Boys, and try to be seen in the right places with the right powder dusting your nostrils. You lose the holy fire, you start thinking in terms of ‘product’, you tell yourself you’re going to ‘change it from the inside,’ but you’re part of the machine now, and it’s too late for you.

    It’s some gonzo writing, mate. Never Mind The Bollocks, Here’s The Wonderchicken

  • The Audience Is (not) Listening

    I don’t delve into this territory very often, and that’s likely to show in the quality of this little piece of writing. I’m going to do it anyway. It’s just a nagging train of thought that won’t leave me alone until I tell someone about it…

    Something’s been bothering me lately. I read rant after rant about how “we’re not allowed to criticize” the current President, usually in prefix or suffix to a critique of said President.

    Do you know why we’re allowed to say “negative” things about Dubya? I mean, aside from the First Amendment (however much that’s worth anymore)? It’s because nobody really cares what anyone says. The people who might otherwise be concerned that the truth about the misdirections and FUD and outright lies is coming out are people who know they have nothing to worry about. The only people listening to the truth are the people who already know it.

    What’s really bothering me is the utter, complete lack of accountability at the highest levels. Checks and balances? What’s that? Somehow we’ve achieved a level of collective apathy that condones by inaction what should be unforgivable actions in a head of state, let alone the head of what state presents itself as the beacon of the rule of law over any one man’s power.

    So let me get this straight. I use clever sleight of mind to distract my wife, outright lie to her when I can’t quite get away with half-truths, and when the truth comes out all hell breaks loose. The most prominent figure in this country uses sleight of mind to distract us, outright lies when his back’s to the wall, and when the truth comes out… well, you certainly hear and see enough from the unimportant, the emasculated and the tiredly bitter. But nothing actually happens.

    Gee, it must be awfully nice to be filthy rich and utterly devoid of conscience.

    I don’t even have the luxury of faith in karma or God to see to it that justice is eventually done to the sort of people who perpetrate lies, bigotry and hatred at the top levels of a government supposedly based on ideals like freedom, equality and accountability.

    And you wonder why I can’t listen to those “proud to be an American” ditties on the country station I now work for?

  • Breaking the silence… again!

    So, uh, what have I been up to these last four days? Well, I worked a “normal” shift Friday. I was home Saturday with the kids. I spent the first part of Sunday curled up in bed, not so much sleeping as just sort of recovering. What finally got me moving was hearing some music playing in the living room.

    Erica was using the multimedia computer and playing some InuYasha soundtrack cuts. That was enough to bring me out of my torpor and get me into the living room. What woke me the rest of the way up is that the myHTPC display was showing “album art” for the InuYasha directory.

    Long story short, I know how album art works now. Hah!

    While explaining the feature to Erica, I tested it by navigating to the Nausicaa soundtrack directory (yep, the cover-art JPG showed up just like it was supposed to). While I was there I queued up some of the tracks and told Erica about how those songs are from one of my all-time favorite anime. Okay, mind you I haven’t actually seen an uncut subtitled Nausicaa of the Valley of Wind. I own a copy of the hacked up dub called Warriors of the Wind, though. Erica decided she wanted to see it, and have me watch it with her. And that’s exactly what we did. (She liked it. That’s my girl!)

    (But wow, it’s been a few years. I’d forgotten just how awful some of those voices and lines really are.)

    During the movie I got a call from Dalemar, who outta-the-blue invited me to do some LAN gaming. Mechwarrior 4, to be specific. Who am I to turn down some gaming, eh? It had been far too long since I’d fragged, yes indeed.

    So I got together with him, the Ratboy and a couple of their friends to experience… pain, really. I’m not a very good mech builder, and I’m an even worse mech pilot. I had fun, though, and that’s what counts. (Okay, I had an absolute blast. No complaints at all.)

    Yesterday didn’t give me much I really want to write about until after about 9pm, when I went over to hang out with Lil’ and Molly for a couple of hours. Good stew, good chit-chat, just what I needed after a day full of tense frustration highlighted by the closest thing to a full-on anxiety attack I’ve had in ages. Whee.

    Today was a much mellower day, though the 24 computers Corporate ordered as 2004’s replacement “budget” showed up this afternoon. Guess what I’ll be doing for the next few weeks at work?

  • Past, Present, Future – Round Forty-eight

    PAST: Been crazy once?

    PRESENT: What drives you absolutely crazy?

    FUTURE: Figure you’ll go crazy someday?

    Forty-eight down, four to go. The weeks are ticking down. Got a seed idea for the last few PPFs? Let me know!
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  • Now I know what, just not why.

    40 working hours ago (that would be Monday morning, and yes it has been one long damned week already) we began a painful process of dealing with and sussing out a series of crashes on our Groupwise server. We’ve tried the usual maintenance procedures, we’ve tried patching the OS and email systems, and we’ve tried cursing. Lots of that, actually.

    Today, the (verbose) logfiles have finally given up their secrets. For each abend there’s a temporary file in the MTA working directory. Each file is locked by the MTA because even though its thread has died the MTA doesn’t know it so it won’t release the lock. After ratcheting up the logfile verbosity, the MTA told me two things: That it’s failing on an address lookup, and that the address is “kmttcontests.” It didn’t take a genius to figure that the rest of the address is “@kmtt.com,” mind you.

    So just now I sent a test message from my Groupwise address to that recipient. Guess what? Another thread died! Eureka!

    Now I know what’s causing these specific crashes. The question is… why does that one email address cause the MTA to lose a processing thread? I have no idea, and neither Novell’s support site or Google’s usenet searching capability have been much help. Right now my fate is in the hands of those busy guys at Corporate…

  • Can’t update. Still working.

    Friday? About 10 hours.

    Sunday? Eight hours.

    Monday? 13 or so.

    Tuesday? A bit more than 10.

    Today? Who knows?

    If you’re wondering why I haven’t had the energy to write or anything to write about, now you know. I’ll be glad when the half-dozen ongoing emergencies all die down around the office… whenever that will be.