I approach forty years old. I’ll never again be that silly lad filled with nervous excitement, constantly seeking out new sights and experiences. I understand that, and accept it. C’mon: That kid was annoying, most of the time.
I don’t, however, like how far I’ve come from the days when I could dream, create, reach out and share. What have I done lately? The summer music project was, by almost any measure, a complete bust. My notable accomplishment there was in actually finishing the silly thing, but I couldn’t even continue as I meant to at the beginning, with the voice recording and music beds and clever stuff.
I need to recapture at least some of my former enthusiasm for life. The last few years were rough, but I’d hate to think that a divorce and being unemployed and getting older are enough to flatten my joie de vivre.
I believe that the first part of getting my life back involves sharing and connecting. That gregarious fellow who made good friends hither and yon seems to have disappeared, and I’d like to reclaim some of that lost life and skill. I can only do so much with the schedule I live with, mind you.
Once again, I need to put some priority into keep this silly website updated. There was a time when I posted several times a week, regularly! Can you imagine it? Do you know what else? I used to reply to email messages! I used to write email messages to people out of the blue, just to say hello and ask how they’re doing!
Yeah, I know. I can’t believe it either, anymore.
So. One more time, trying to carry on the fight against winding down. Can I do it, this time?
@Lil – Percolating?
You know, I can’t think of that word without that old… Maxwell House?… commercial jingle popping into my mind. Doo-doo doo-doo BOOP bop, doo-doo-doo BOP BOP…
I’m a strange person.
You’re not winding down, any more than I am. You’re percolating. You just don’t know it yet. 🙂
Might I suggest a rubber duckie? I’ve found that, no matter how down you are or how grim things look at any particular time, a rubber duckie goes a long way towards making things better.
Having turned 40 earlier this year, I needed a lot of rubber duckies.
@Wonderduck – You know, I do need more rubber duckies… and I should put up the string-of-lights duckies I received for Christmas last year, too. Hmm!
Everybody needs more rubber duckies. Particularly those who say “I don’t need or want a rubber duckie.”