Remember just a few days ago when I wrote about how “back” I was? I had all of this drive, determination and motivation? Yeah. That went nowhere in a big screaming hurry, didn’t it? It’s sure as hell gone, now.

I’ve tried no less than three times today to pick up and delve into Blender, the 3D animation studio. I just… can’t… do it. Between times I’ve tried to come up with a good music video idea. Nope, I can’t do that either. How about some writing? A couple of false starts, but nothing to (*cough*) write home about.

I’m so frustrated I could scream. But that would be a bad idea, don’t you know. There’s enough tension around here right now, who cares about one whiney guy who can’t get his creative juices flowing? It’s not the end of the world, after all.

Just because I’ve thought of myself my entire life as a creative sort of person, that shouldn’t mean the fact that I’m really not ought to send me into a dark pit of despair, right?

I guess I’ll go back to playing games. I can do that…

I needed a vacation. It turns out I needed one from my online life as well as my job and home life. Correction, I needed two vacations. In November, I took them.

And now, I’m back. I’m back here, I’m back there, I’m back everywhere. Look for updates to the Anime Site, look for more frequent postings here, look for more frequent postings to the fora I frequent (all two of them, sure). Hell, if I can really get going, there’ll be creative video goodness in the not-too-distant future. No, I’m serious. Stop snickering. Stop it, I say! Thpppt.

It’s time to shake off the doldrums, stand up straight and bring my gaze back up to the horizon.

I’m ready. And it’s about damned time.